Today I'm surrendering my life to the Lord. Everyday is a choice to surrender... some days things are going well and are pleasing to the eye. In those days it is easy to surrender to God knowing he is good. I'm in days where things aren't pleasing to the eye. Surrendering to God has brought me to where I am and my flesh likes to question/build an arguement against the Lord.

Right now I have a financial obstacle that I cannot overcome. I'm virtually trapped at my house for most of the day due to lack of a car and I don't have a legitimate job. Instead of complaining about this or worring about what I have to do, I'm going to submit to him as my provider.

Being in my worst poverty ever I've come to understand how he is my provision and my portion forever. Though I have physical needs that have yet to be met, I can live like a king in his Kingdom. His kingdom is not of this world. It has nothing to do with having a working car or having enough money to buy nice things. It's all about him... he is the center piece. I can enjoy riches fit for kings yet I am poor and suffer need. No matter where I am at I can always enjoy him.

I know that my poverty is not a lack of God's care, but an instrument by which God thrusts me further into him. So I will take these places where I lack and, in prayer, I'll submit to the Lord's work within me. Christ spoke of a cost to being his disciple. If we want to truly find our llifes we must first lose it for his sake.

So tonight I submit and surrender to the Lord's goodness knowing that he is good to those who trust in him.