Daily Battle

I don't think a day goes without me feeling that longing in my heart for the one God has called me to walk with. It is a God given blessing to have this. It is not only a good drive to pray for that partnership, but it also has a constructive purpose within your heart to prepare you for the actual relationship.

My original response to these feelings was despair and guilt. I somehow got within my mind that these feelings were a result of me not finding contentment in the Lord, but when you think about it... Adam, who wasn't fallen yet, had Eve. God saw that it wasn't good for him to be alone. He saw it good for him to have a help mate. So Me, who has been set free from sin and is beeing set free, is kinda in the same boat yah know.

Upon learning this I've come to terms with the fact that this longing is 100% natural and good. So instead of fighting the ache, I've learned to embrace it as a God given blessing. Knowing that God has a purpose and a plan for these feelings; Not to tear me down, but to construct something beautiful and amazing... something that will give him glory.

Instead of causing depression within me, it now produces thankfulness and praise. Knowing that when me and her are together physicaly, I'll be praising him for every time I felt that ripping pain within. I'm going to praise him for every girl that I've liked and was "denied". I'm going to praise him for all the tears shed, for each aspect of this storm has been orchestrated so wonderfuly to produce a marriage full of his glory and kingdom.

So take joy all you who are single and suffer this daily...

Romans 8:18 "For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory that is to be revealed in us."