Stop Wasting your life!

That's what I secretly hear people preaching to me. Saying that I need to get a better job. Saying that I need to start "testing the field" if I ever want to be married. Here is to all the voices that say I'm a bum. I DO NOT LIVE FOR THIS WORLD. I'd be waisting my life if I spent every waking moment working and studying. I am called to be there for my friends and with my friends. They are my ministry. I absolutely refuse to get a job that will remove me completely from them. I am not called to do that. I would rather live on the street then live for myself. I am going to wait for the Lord to provide a wife. I am not going to go around and try to date every woman that I can find. I am not going to rely on my charm and my good looks (if I even have them) to produce a wife. I will minister unto the Lord today cause I have time to. I am going to minister to my friends cause I have time to. I am going to serve others in their need cause I have time to. I will not fall for the ways of this world. I am not bound by the unwritten rules of what I "should" be doing for a guy my age. I do not live to obtain wealth... my world does not revolve around finding a wife and having a family. Sure those things will come in time, but I am not going to lay down what the Lord is wanting to do for the sake of trying to obtain them. I lay down my agendas for the sake of following the Lord. I will not lay down the Lord's agendas to obtain wealth and a family. I will worship the Lord my God alone. I will not worship having a woman... I will not worship having a wife. Finally... if I am going to waste my life... I will waste it upon him.