Who i really am

Standing before you,
back from my sin.
Stumbling with words,
thoughts raging within.

Lord I'm crying out,
speak to me now.
Let me know who I really am.

Lord I'm dying inside,
drowning in my sin.
Let me know who i really am.

You have made me righteous,
set free from my sin.
You have made holy,
a new creation from within.

My heart is aching,
waiting again.
trapped in my mindsets,
lies causing me pain.

Lord I'm crying out,
speak to me now.
Let me know who I really am.

Lord I'm dieing inside,
believing all these lies.
Let me know who I really am.

You have made me righteouse,
set free from my sin.
You have made me holy,
a new creation from within.

Mind of Christ

We have been given the mind of Christ, and with that comes the ability to tap into it whenever we want. His thoughts can become ours. I often have trouble with ragging thoughts that often lead me down paths in my mind that produce death and can often ruine my day. Through Christ and in Christ I have a mind after the Spirit of the living God. This can fill my day with life and ultimately produce his knigdom not only in my life but in the lives of those around me.

Today I want to enjoy that gift.

Changing "Directive"

God's been renewing my mind quite a bit this morning towards where I'm at in my life. Instead of thinking that where I am at is simply a place derrived from my mistakes or my accomplishmets, I'm beginning to view it as a place that God has placed me in for a specific purpose.

The whole underlining purpose for the reason why I'm where I am at is to change the focus of my heart from things of this world to Christ.

With this in perspective I begin to see things with hope and life. The fact that I'm broke is more than a simple "I'm not working enough" but a tool by which God is freeing me from the love and dependency of money so that I would love and depend upon him. The fact that I'm single is more than "I am not attractive" but a tool by which God is freeing from finding security and identity in having someone to finding security and identity in Christ. The fact that I have a lot free time is more than a simple "I'm lazy" but a tool by which God is using me to establish things from the spirit into the physical for my friends and family. The fact that I'm living at home is more than a simple "I can't make it out on my own." but a tool by which God is stirring me to pray and intercede for my family.

I pray that today, whether through pain or blessing, that the "directive" of our hearts would be changed more and more from this world to Christ.

Rest and Recieve

I was sitting here staring at a ball of fur I like to call "brat" but most of you would know it as a cat. So I'm sitting here thinking that all of creation speaks of his invisible qualities and began to wonder about what these brats might be speaking to me.

Well, all they do is lay around the house. I mean what a lazy bunch of free loaders. They don't pay one ouce of rent nor do they prepare their own food. All they do is recieve... and dish out a couple of scratches from time to time.

I was thinking about how I am in Christ. How I'm like those cats... well I don't really have someone poking me until the hair on my back stand up but you get the point. All I have to do is rest and recieve. I am bought and paid for and I belong to God. He's a wonderful shepherd and an awesome Father. He will provide for my every need according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus.

What a life!

Making Lemonade

Enjoying my sweet ride today I began to realize some things. My car has a weird noise to it. Sounds almost like a ricer. Enough to think I tried to fabricate the noise. As I began to think about that I noticed that my windows have really cheap tinted windows. Not to mention the fact that I have my radio loud cause I don't want to hear the new sounds popping up as I drive my car.

So here I am driving down the highway with my radio loud, windows cheaply tinted, and my car sounding like I did something to try to make it sound cool. I couldn't help but laugh at it all. I wonder how many old people have already labeled me a punk. ^_^

My new blue jeans pants, handed down to me from my dad, fit a little loose. I usually wear a 36 waiste and these pants are a 38. Enought for me to have to hike them up every now and then. I really don't have a belt to hold them up yet so they kind of sag from time to time. That's a nice addition to my image. Thank God I don't have any over sized jerseys and flat billed hats yet.

The whole point of this post is basically me having fun and enjoying what God has given me. I really do believe God has a sense of humor. God has provided for my needs, and for that I am thankful. I might not want lemons, but since God has given me lemons... I'm going to enjoy what he has given me.

Living and Active

Right now, if you have recieved Christ as your Lord, God is working within you. You are sitting at the right hand of the father in Christ, and God is pouring out his spirit through Christ into you. Christ is interceding for you, the Spirit within you is praying and interceding with moaning and groaning you cannot understand... all of this is going on right now!

If some of you are like me, you feel pretty dull right now. Some of you might be hurting... others might be filled with peace and contentment. Some of you are feeling pretty let down right now. Some of you feel distant and lonely.

I invite you to, through whatever you are feeling, avail yourself to the Lord. He will speak to you, change you, comfort you, guide you, quiet you, move you, love you, bless you, and meet whatever other need you may have. HE IS LIVING AND ACTIVE. He is not distant but is right here within you and he has the ability to change you. All you have to do is avail yourself to his Spirit and let him do the work within you.

He is doing something right now even as you read these words. You have the opportunity to ignor it, or seek after it as a precious jewel. I pray that you do the later of the two.

Still Providing

Mat 6:24-33 "No one can serve two masters. Either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and Money. Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.

I joked about this with my friend but... I have only one pair of jeans. Couple of weeks ago I ripped that last pair of jeans helping someone move. I'm starting to rip holes in my only shirts as well as my list of clothes are growing dimmer and dimmer. The other night I was taking off my favorite shirt and heard it rip as I attempted to take it off gracefuly. As of today all I've got is a pair of sweats and two pairs of shorts(one of thems basketball shorts). I remember nights in my apartment when I'd go to bed hungry cause I couldn't afford to put food in the pantry.

He said he would clothe me, and provide for my every need. Is he still doing this? Well... I'm not walking around naked yet so I'd say yes! Life is more then clothing. I don't live to look nice... so I see nothing wrong with my situation at all. My car may be falling apart but I can still get from A to B.

Since when did we ever need more than that? When did our lives become dependent upon nice clothing? When did it become dependent upon having a car that doesn't have a scratch in it? Since when did all these things become so important that people look in pity when you don't have them?

What is wrong with us? Our God provides... who are we to complain about what he gives us? I mean seriously we are sick in the head!